It's our anniversary tomorrow!

I was young... fifteen, when I met him and I'm smitten till this very day. I love him... I really do. He fascinates me like no other, sweeps me off of my feet everytime. Our love story is one i cherish the most. We have so much history together and I've grown and loved and lived a beautiful life because he came along. He held my hand through it all- pain, laughter, grief and joy. He is my world, a man i can't live without.

2003.
So here I was, a miserable girl in her junior year... High school can be so depressing, life is cruel even for a teenager. I didn't have purpose, no genuine happiness, no life really. I was popular (i think) and had an ample number of suitors to boost my self-esteem (does the opposite sometimes) and my family name rang aloud in the land. Everything seemed to work out for me, but I was dead. I was empty. Numb most of the time. Hated by quite a handful of people. I didn't like me either.

Then I found Jesus. And the rest is history. His story.

Fast forward to now... I'm the girl, uh-ehem 20year-old lady who is radically happy with God.. in love to the very core. The whole-hearted devotion I have for this Man Jesus is what I am all about, it's what shapes me. For Him, I have gladly given up so much of what the world thinks is valuable.. Because I say-- Jesus is infinitely more valuable than anything, I mean anything this world has to offer. I'd willingly give my life for Him. Kill me and I won't complain; raise me back to life and I'd die for Him all over again.

That's Jesus. I can't help it. He's too wonderful to ignore. Too fascinating and beautiful to not love. It's not about religion or some sort of "calling" to serve Him, but this is nothing but pure, unadulterated affection towards a God who's more real to me than my family or friends.

I praise Him for setting me free, out of my self-love and into the unspeakable joy of making much of Him. I make it my aim for this lifetime to pour out all of me for His glory. The joy of beholding Him cannot be surpassed by the pleasure wealth and fame can give, or the thrills of having a boyfriend or a husband.. He's so much bigger than all of that.

He is the only Man I have ever loved. Technically and poetically that's true. He is not my means to the 'best life now', but HE IS MY END. He is my reason, my purpose my SUPERIOR PLEASURE, my greatest reward.For five years now, His glory has been my greatest delight and I can't think of doing anything else but enjoying Him for the rest of my life and forever. I cant wait for eternity.

For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.
Philippians 1:21